Never that bad. But I was usually the one saying stupid things.
[ That's probably a 0% surprise. ]
I'd say anything shitty to hurt him on purpose because I didn't know any better. And then I felt like the worst person alive. Because he made me happy and didn't deserve it.
I just - when he said what he said, my first reaction was just get away from me, but then after that the idea of being without him was...
[ Like the whole world would be different. Like something huge and important would be gone forever. Like... losing the sunshine.
... Hitoshi frowns, feeling weird and lame and confused and yet somehow not, and shifts in to hide his face against his dad's side like a grumpy cat. ]
Spoil sport. This is good tea and watching him fall to his knees and cry that you're growing up would be so worth it.
[ Nevermind that they've only had him for a few years. Hizashi fell hard into his dad role. It was nice.
He keeps petting his hair. ]
Kaminari is a good person. Just remember this is your first love since your trauma. It's fine if it's real, but I want you to keep in mind it might be compensation.
[ That's comforting. He sighs quietly, relaxing again. He hates knowing that there are things he really truly can't do, and that predicting his own heart is apparently one of them - but it's at least nice to know it isn't as if he could be doing anything better.
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[ That's probably a 0% surprise. ]
I'd say anything shitty to hurt him on purpose because I didn't know any better. And then I felt like the worst person alive. Because he made me happy and didn't deserve it.
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Other than a hum of acknowledgement, he's silent for another long moment. ]
... How did you know you were in love with dad?
[ Teenagers are so subtle. ]
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... Honestly. Called out. He knew at this age. ]
When he felt like family.
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[ That's a very thoughtful 'oh'. And no further elaboration offered. ]
And... you knew when you were my age?
[ The best part is that he genuinely doesn't realize how obvious he's being. ]
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[ He grins wide. You're being obvious. ]
Just keep in mind you don't have to be us. We're atypical. Very. Most people date around quite a bit before settling.
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... I wasn't planning on anything.
[ Maybe. Probably. Maybe? ]
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[ He gives his hair a few more pets because he can. ]
Also remember you can't unring a bell.
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[ Like the whole world would be different. Like something huge and important would be gone forever. Like... losing the sunshine.
... Hitoshi frowns, feeling weird and lame and confused and yet somehow not, and shifts in to hide his face against his dad's side like a grumpy cat. ]
... don't tell dad.
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[ Nevermind that they've only had him for a few years. Hizashi fell hard into his dad role. It was nice.
He keeps petting his hair. ]
Kaminari is a good person. Just remember this is your first love since your trauma. It's fine if it's real, but I want you to keep in mind it might be compensation.
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[ He laughs a little, poking him in the hip just because it's nearby. ]
... How do I know?
[ He didn't really think about that, and now it has him worried. Can he know? Can he ever know..? ]
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[ A pause. ]
Which might not happen. I never got tempted by anyone else. Ever.
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He sits up finally, rearranging his bedhead. ]
Dad always says I'm just as stubborn as you.