[ He hasn't really given himself a chance to think about things like that, because until this moment it had been such an impossibility. But at the very least... ]
Would've been nice to remember it at least...
[ A breath of humorless laughter - god, he's so annoyed with himself. When he looks up at Nisaka again, he tries to make himself not try to imagine what it must have been like. To touch him so easily like that, not in any kind of suggestive way but just the simple act of sleeping with the smaller boy in his arms. It's... not easy. ]
... Honestly, I probably wasn't going to tell you at all.
[ it's so easy to admit to it all now. what's done is done, and they can only move forward from here. if hitoshi hasn't turned away from him yet then... well. maybe there's some hope to this all after all.
at the very least, it doesn't seem like he'll be losing a friend. but that's what's most important here, anyway. all the hiding, all the resisting. it was all to preserve what they had.
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[ He hasn't really given himself a chance to think about things like that, because until this moment it had been such an impossibility. But at the very least... ]
Would've been nice to remember it at least...
[ A breath of humorless laughter - god, he's so annoyed with himself. When he looks up at Nisaka again, he tries to make himself not try to imagine what it must have been like. To touch him so easily like that, not in any kind of suggestive way but just the simple act of sleeping with the smaller boy in his arms. It's... not easy. ]
... Honestly, I probably wasn't going to tell you at all.
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[ it's so easy to admit to it all now. what's done is done, and they can only move forward from here. if hitoshi hasn't turned away from him yet then... well. maybe there's some hope to this all after all.
at the very least, it doesn't seem like he'll be losing a friend. but that's what's most important here, anyway. all the hiding, all the resisting. it was all to preserve what they had.
he shrugs. ]
Now what?
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He's never gotten this far in thinking about it. He's done his level best not to think about it at all, if he can help it. ]
I... I don't know.
[ It sounds so ridiculous, but he doesn't know what else to say. ]
... Will you come sit down, at least?